Keeks, I'm proud of you. That's some good stuff!

Pat, you know you can always call me and drop some f-bombs when you need to. I just seen this post. 

Just wanted to say, I hope you all had a great Christmas and I pray that you all have a Happy and prosperous New Year.

Although, I've not met most of you, I do feel a kinship with ya'll.  I pray that God blesses you all through out the next year (and onward).

db

So, I've temporarily stopped drinking and smoking dope. It's been kinda hard… I'm also fending off a bit of a cold so that's making it a bit easier… it wasn't on account of a massive bender or some poor choices that I've decided to this, mostly the drinking is making me fat again, and I don't want to be 280 again… lol.

I agree with Bruce.  I went to the doctor recently, with thoughts of horrors in dealing with my heart.  To be quite honest, I was thinking that death was creeping around, waiting for me.

I had gained 20 lbs and my blood pressure was up a little bit, from normal to borderline, but the doc said it wasn't that bad.  As such, I've been in the long arduous process of "quitting smoking" having one here or there, but the last three days, I've not had one puff.

I'll tell ya, right now, I'm really really on edge, quick to anger.  (Well, quicker than normal)  Lingering thoughts fill my mind of having a smoke.  "One wont hurt me." I say to myself.  But, the feeling I'll get after I smoke, the sluggishness among other things tend to keep the strength of desire at bay….

I cant really say what'll happen tonight.  I don't want a cigarette, but then again, there's that lingering desire.  I apologize for the length of this…diatribe, ramble…  Any prayers would be appreicated.    Though I do feel a bit better after my ramblings…

eep!

The boy asked if I wanted to move in together with him when my lease runs out.  He's taking a year off before law school and is trying to get an internship at some law firm here in b'ham, so it just kind of makes sense.  It was my valentines day surprise. yay!